I have sat through this scene before<\/p>\n
Witness to my past and forever future<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t move then \u2013 and am not about to now<\/p>\n
I simply lack the will to change<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I need to find my balance — and then set it off kilter<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
At the core of every scene has been a troubled soul<\/p>\n
There needs to be a yearning to uncover, explain, fight, expose<\/p>\n
— and I have none of that.<\/p>\n
What do I yearn for in my comfortable surroundings?<\/p>\n
Nothing\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n So, life becomes like a death spiral of personal depreciation \u2013<\/p>\n It is the quiet moments, early in the morning,<\/p>\n When you\u2019ve just woken from your dreams \u2013<\/p>\n And you realize that it is another day.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Aching, stifling anxiety<\/p>\n Permanently reflecting on what can be<\/p>\n What could have been, what should be<\/p>\n Rendering one\u2019s self worthless<\/p>\n <\/p>\n An eunuch of what once was\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n I long for nothing more than to look into the mirror of my soul<\/p>\n and to say again, \u201cI know that man, and I respect him for his action.\u201d<\/p>\n <\/p>\n and yet, these are nothing but the idle thoughts of middle age<\/p>\n that take interesting men and thrust mediocrity upon them<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Chris George\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n From the collection entitled \u201cAt 42\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n June 2004<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I have sat through this scene before Witness to my past and forever future I didn\u2019t move then \u2013 and am not about to now I simply lack the will to change I need to find my balance — and then set it off kilter At the core of every scene has been…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[80],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10948"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10948"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10948\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10975,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10948\/revisions\/10975"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10948"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10948"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10948"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}