{"id":10981,"date":"2020-01-23T06:56:07","date_gmt":"2020-01-23T11:56:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/?p=10981"},"modified":"2020-01-21T22:57:05","modified_gmt":"2020-01-22T03:57:05","slug":"my-inability-to-count-blessings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/?p=10981","title":{"rendered":"My inability to count blessings"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The shallow breaths betray my guarded uneasiness<\/p>\n<p>The heaviness in my chest<\/p>\n<p>The lightness in my head<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I fight this meaninglessness with<\/p>\n<p>hand to temple, eyes firmly closed<\/p>\n<p>A pool of bile churning in my stomach<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Until every mountain has been ground down<\/p>\n<p>Until every river has run dry<\/p>\n<p>I need to count my blessings.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Instead, I count black crows<\/p>\n<p>I smell damp dirt<\/p>\n<p>and I wonder why I don\u2019t get it<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>What part of life must I come to understand<\/p>\n<p>beyond a child\u2019s laugh or my boys squealing \u2018Dada\u2019<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em>\u2018Dada\u2019<\/em> &#8212; nada<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>really, nothing<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>and, yet,<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em>Chris George\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>From the collection entitled \u201cAt 42\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>June 2004<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The shallow breaths betray my guarded uneasiness The heaviness in my chest The lightness in my head &nbsp; I fight this meaninglessness with hand to temple, eyes firmly closed A pool of bile churning in my stomach &nbsp; Until every mountain has been ground down Until every river has run dry I need to count&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[80],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10981"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10981"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10981\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10983,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10981\/revisions\/10983"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10981"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10981"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bygeorgejournal.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10981"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}